So I haven't been on here in a long time. A lot has gone on. I returned to Christianity and now I find myself with doubts again. I don't think I will return to the atheist viewpoint again though. I did have a thought that regardless of whether I believe there is or isn't a God, there is or isn't a God. It has nothing to do with my beliefs. Either there is or there isn't. In a backwards kind of way, this gives me some peace. It is not up to me and my thoughts. I need not prove or disprove anything because things are as they should be.
I did rebuild from atheism or the belief that there is no higher being to the belief that there is. Where Jesus Christ fits in this precisely, I don't know. It is my right as a human being to pursue these lines of thought and it is my right to change my mind on things as I grow as a person. Mainly, I believe in love. Everything else flows from there.